Realised this is really messy but I'm too tired to care.

Officially switched to sprints today and damn, they have so much breaks okay! And I miss long d ): If I'm not good enough for fourbyfour, so be it. But I just don't want to run thousandfive. I want my 800, not one metre more, not one metre less. Even better if I sit out next year's Combine's and not be the fucking roadsweeper or throw my face away. How come I'm stuck and sliding down? My timing's all off now. Even worse than when I was Sec One. Why? wtf, am I still slacking? It's like I'm put on auto to slack or what. I'm so far from NingJia still what take over NingNing's place. This whole thing is just so fuck okay. I wake up so early and go training ready to prove myself and so optimistic, and everything just doesn't go right. Do what now?? I even go run with LihYuan on non-training days. I'm didn't improve at all. Everybody's so good now, and I'm still struggling. All those regulars are improving like crazy and yet, I'm nowhere. Even though I go trainings regularly and even train extra. ShiYing's like freaking fast now, she even beats Chelsea. WeiLe can do 14.8 for hundred. And blah blah, all others got natural talent so no need train also pro. So whatever, I'm out of crosscountry team, possibilty of not making it to the fourbyfour relay team or either making it and pulling all of them down, so why am I still in TAF Club? -.-

Deathnote's damn funny and L's is one hell of a weird guy. But also funny luh heh.